Reality!!!

I still after 5 months am in complete shock over moms death. I keep waiting for it to hit me and it hasn't just yet. Sometimes I will sit in the living room and watch out the front door expecting her to walk in for lunch. Or the kids will do something new or funny and I catch myself thinking I can't wait to tell mom what they did. I visit her grave on occation and I don't know if it was harder seeing the mound of fresh dirt or now that it is completely level and covered in grass. The monument co. called and said her headstone was done, so Dave, Erick and I went to see it last night. Its beautifull, exactly what I wanted for her. But seeing her name and picture on it seems unreal. They should be setting it next week, then I think reallity will set in!!!